The sunset stretches my shadow long and thin,

It colors deeply dye my heart.

When you said this was probably the last time,

I held back my tears.

Memories are always too sad.

i just want to forget them all.

I continue to watch the last sunset,

and your back that i would never see again.

Right now, I’m being drenched by this rain in my eyes,

Is it all right if i cry now?

You are no longer here.

If my tears began to overflow, Don’t stop them.

Rain, freeze me down to my heart

I just want to silently fade into nothingness.

Stop the sunset, don’t sing right now.

The sun casts sad colors as it sinks into the ocean

Just let me stay here alone forever

Make it so the sun never sets.

              In a red ink, I found a Number written in my class card for the subject Integral Calculus, beside the word “Final grade” a number “5” was written, but what does it implies? That No. wants to say that I didn’t beat the professor’s quota grade. That the total score of my Board works, short exams and major exam doesn’t exceed 50% in shot I’ve failed the subject.

                That very moment when I received my class card, my world suddenly collapsed, I’ve got disappointed and told myself, “the hard works, the efforts and the sleepless nights. All those are just equal to a failing grade of 5? How funny is that huh?” another thing that worsen the feeling that I’m carrying back then is the idea that the grade I just receive will appear on my transcript of record.  Just a big why? Are my efforts still not enough?

                I don’t know how he compute his student’s grade but a thing is for sure, I gave my best so I can pass his subject, I gave my full attention to it to the extent that I already ignore my other subjects, but I guess  those was still not enough. If he thinks that I didn’t master the subject then so be it, I’ll just take it again this summer and prove to him that I deserve a better grade.

                They say that in my course it’s normal to receive a failing mark because it’s quite difficult but it’s my first time to have a failing grade and I really feel bad about myself but then a friend told me. “Sometimes someone needs to experience how is it to fall, Life isn’t always about winning sometimes it is also necessary for someone to lose. I smiled at him and thank him for his words. I guess he’s right I’ll just take it in a positive way, I will just take it as a Challenge so I can do better on my studies next time. They’ll see.